A’s Heavenly Downloads

When I attended an evening prayer meeting online last week, the pastor said something to a member of the congregation towards the end of the service that stood out me: “your  disappointment will become a divine appointment”. 

He said He those words may be for more than one person. As I thought about it some more, I recalled the guided devotion that I went through on the Bible app that morning. One of the readings was:

“I hereby command you: Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

The word “dismayed” really caught my eye, so I looked up the word online and, out of there or four definitions I read, one particular definition jumped out at me: “a feeling of disappointment”.

I sat pondering the way I had been feeling recently, particularly in respect of my work situation. I’ve been under a lot of pressure with seemingly very little support from management or colleagues for a significant period of time. I applied for a couple of other jobs as a potential way out, with no luck. I felt stuck, but wasn’t entirely sure I wanted those other roles I applied for either. I felt that the Lord wanted me to be in my current role and led me there, but I was finding it extremely challenging. Un-enjoyable even. Disappointed was a more than apt description of how I was feeling. 

The verse that morning reminded me that God is with me in all situations and to look to Him always; that I am not alone . And the pastor’s words that evening reminded me of this. 

I trust that the Lord has a plan and purpose for me. For all of us. He holds all things and works all things for the good of those who love him, who are called according to His purpose.

I continue to pray what the app prompted me to pray that  morning: “God, thank You for giving me hope. No matter what I face, You daily remind me that I have all that I need when l draw near to You. Thank You for being my source of strength and comfort. On good days and bad days, I’m grateful that I can always count on You. Realign my heart today, and teach me how to draw near to You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”